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Nicolai Levashov. The Mirror of My Soul. Vol. 1. Born in the USSR

nevertheless, would neither renounce nor betray me. I saw her suffering and, not

knowing how to help her, asked her to renounce me, but she would not. Therefore, I had
to look for the key to the system which was causing Svetlana this unbearable pain
without paying attention to it (believe me it was very difficult to do).

The matter is that in order to stop this kind of influence, I had to find the source,
comprehend the principle and, using the understanding of its nature as a basis, block it.
After that I had to neutralize the source and the influencing creature, as well as create
protection from this kind of influence and every possible combination of it I could think
of. However, in these cases Dark Forces use as a weapon exactly that what you lack and
you must find what you do not know yet, meanwhile the most important and dearest
person in the world is suffering terrible pain. It is a very “pleasant” picture, isn’t it? In
this situation you would rather take all the pain upon yourself in order that the per-son
you love does not suffer, but the blow is aimed exactly at her in order to do you as much
harm as possible.

In this situation you must disconnect yourself from what is going on before your
very eyes, keep aloof from the suffering of the person you love most in the world,
concentrate on the search for the source and at the same time try to alleviate her pain,

using the methods you already know, because only then it is possible to find a solution
and put an end to the unendurable torturing of the person you love. Only when you find
the initial source and the influencing principle applied by the parasite, will you stop this
madness and neutralize their next attack. In most cases, this inhuman influence was
executed by a Light Hierarch taken by the parasites, who in reality is their victim and
only serves as an instrument in their filthy “hands”.

You must take all this into account, curb your emotions and concentrate only on
the solution of the problem, because only then you can find the way out of this. It is far
from being simple and easy, when your dearest person suffers so awfully, but you must
gather all your will, pay no attention to this and concentrate solely on the search for the
solution, knowing perfectly well that if you allow pity and sympathy to crawl into your
soul and you lose — you will be not able to help the person you love and, in principle,

you will become the reason for her death. Well, as you see the choice is extremely
limited. The crux of the matter is not even in the options, but in the fact that it is necessary
to become absolutely calm and stay concentrated on the task despite the terrible picture
of another person suffering! Does anyone want to try? I do not recommend it—it is
extremely hard, but this is the only chance to find the solution to the problem!

Often I had to endure extreme pain and I know from my own experience the feeling
when your nerves “burn” and the fiery pain of it tries to squash your will. But this is
nothing in comparison with what you feel, when a beloved person suffers and you must
enter into a state of complete calmness, paying no attention to this and restraining
yourself from the burning desire to throw your-self into helping, but stay and search,
search and search for the solution .This is a weight as heavy as lead!

It was especially hard when it happened for the first time. The first action that I
undertook was the creation of stronger and more elaborate defenses. I created one thing
after another, made transformations of the spirit, but nothing helped. Then I understood
that I had to act differently—to search for a reason. The situation was like the one
described in the Russian fairy-tale about Koschei the Immortal, an evil person of ugly

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