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Nicolai Levashov. The Mirror of My Soul. Vol. 1. Born in the USSR

from Moscow, to whom I had recently (from 1989) begun to teach the elements of my

work, and a fellow from Kharkov—he was
the first person to undergo brain transformation. Their names were Sergey, Vladimir
and Igor.

I do not give their last names on purpose—later you will understand why. The first
two came with me to Hungary, and the third one asked to take him, when at the beginning
of August I arrived in Kharkov to get my driving license and met several fellows from
the very first “transformation” group.

The reason why I insisted on taking several persons with me was because I knew
that if I wanted to realize my plans, I would need people on whom I could rely and who

would not stab me in the back at the most unsuitable moment, although there are no
suitable moments for treachery. I decided to organize some kind of reliability test for
these boys.

In fact, this was the main reason, why I took Sergey and Vladimir with me to
Hungary. And already during this journey some aspects of their behaviour made me
think, but I did not fix my attention on these “moments”, for a reason—I needed to see
their real face. Certainly, I could look through all possible variants and draw
corresponding conclusions (to tell the truth, I did), but I al-ways considered, and still
consider, that a person should not be deprived of his chance to act correctly, until the
deed is done.

Man must be responsible for his action, not for his thoughts about possible action.
There is a tiny possibility that at the last moment this very person will act correctly
despite his previous thoughts. Although such a miracle is a very rare phenomenon,
nevertheless, it is wrong to deprive a person of such a chance. That was and still is my
belief, but also I could not wait long. Therefore, I developed a very simple psychological
method.

I perfectly understood that if I explicitly showed my reaction to the person’s
behaviour, it would give no results. If a person considered it advantageous to be with
me, for their own reasons, then showing my dissatisfaction would only make them more
careful. Also I did not want to watch and closely control people all the time, I wanted to
trust them and be sure that they would not betray me. Therefore, in order to clarify
everything as quickly as possible, I decided just to observe their behaviour and actions,
mentally estimate them and, when I had a clear picture, let each of them know my
decision. In this situation, when a person cannot see any negative reaction, he will show
his true face much quicker. This was my plan and I began to implement it.

I actively occupied myself with preparation for the journey. Mr. Steuler sent the
invitation for everyone I had indicated and I began to solve problems with the
registration of German visas. In 1990 it was already possible to give all documents
necessary for visa registration to certain persons and they would do all the work, of
course, for quite a considerable sum of money. When my student arrived from Kharkov,
it appeared that he did not have a foreign passport. And again, this could be sorted out
rapidly without any problem, if an applicant had money (at that time there were already
a lot of small firms, which worked with government bodies and quickly arranged all
kinds of permits).

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