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Nicolai Levashov. The Mirror of My Soul. Vol. 1. Born in the USSR

None of my wards passed the test of Germany. I am not sorry for money which I

lost in all that, but I am really sorry that among these people there was no one who would
be able to pass this test. Nevertheless, I was glad that all this showed up so quickly and
the avidity of these people could do no harm to the cause which I was serving then—the
cause of justice, the cause of the fight against social parasites, whose nature I had just
began to understand.

Certainly, it is a shame that these people did not pass the test, but it would be much
worse, if they succeeded in hiding their real face which would show itself at the most
unsuitable moment. In fact my enemies, social parasites, have almost unlimited financial
resources and therefore, if a per-son has this kind of “rottenness”, they will always find
a way to bring it up to the mark.

Thus, a potential betrayer is in the dormant mode and his awakening can lead to
serious con-sequences. This “Trojan horse” is very dangerous, but until a person shows

with his actions that he has become a slave of one or another weakness, one has no right
to blame him for what he has not yet done. Man has a right to get the chance to act
correctly, despite the fact that in his head he has already betrayed. At the last moment a
man can overcome his weakness and act according to his conscience. The person cannot
be deprived of this right. He should be estimated not only according to his thoughts, but
also—to his deeds. Only by using such an approach, may an error be avoided.

The tactic, which I used in Germany, appeared to be very effective. Certainly, I
could discuss with them their faults, but it only would result in them acting more
carefully and secretly. If they already had the virus of avidity, treachery or cowardice, it
would conceal itself and wait for its “hour of triumph”. It is very difficult to expose such
a delayed-action “mine” and prove that it is real!

But I abhor the idea of spying on those who are near me, even with good intentions.
I wanted to be sure that if I had comrades-in-arms, I could turn my back to them without
expecting to be stabbed. And the applied tactic allowed doing it very quickly and with
minimum losses. It is better to take an all-round defense and have no unexpected
surprises from people you trust. And the trust should be earned by real acts, not by idle
talk about them which in fact happens more frequently.

The rightness of my deductions was confirmed by the fact that my Kharkov student
did not consider it necessary to contact me and tell that the Germans were looking for

me. The point is that when I came to Moscow, I moved from the apartment in which I
lived before my journey to Ger-many and went to my cousin’s apartment in Butovo. The
Germans wanted to find me, because the results of experiments with shampoos and
creams were positive, and they wanted to collaborate more actively with me.

They tried to find me on my old telephones, but failed. Therefore, they called my
Kharkov “helper”. He already understood that he could not use me anymore and did not
even mention that they were actively seeking me. Although, he knew where and how I
could be found and he also knew the people with whom I constantly communicated and
who would pass the information on; he did not do it for “some” reason. This fact
characterized his consumer nature pretty eloquently. I learned about this much later, so
my conclusions concerning his human ability to work and fight against social parasites
appeared to be correct.

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