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Nicolai Levashov. The Mirror of My Soul. Vol. 1. Born in the USSR

appeared to be two hundred Marks for a session and later— more. They began to make

money, a “good” business!

I think there is no need to explain, what the results of such “treatments” were, but
they did not care. They were only interested in how much money they were able to rake
in. And the fact that they discredited everything that I had begun to build in Germany
did not bother them at all. On seeing such a transformation, I even regretted that I had
insisted on their journey to Germany. But at the same time, I was glad that these people
showed their true nature so quickly.

I did not hurry to dot my “i's” and cross my “t's”—I wanted them to totally open up
their real personalities. In the meantime I just observed and put my “ticks” in their boxes
without saying a word. And this tactic worked very well! It appeared that these people
were not free from avidity. This fact distressed me very much. When you put a lot of
your labour and soul into someone, you want to believe that this person will choose the
path of light and will be your comrade- in-arms: but very often it appears that many say
beautiful words only to get what they desire which they are un-able to get any other way!

Every time I saw this kind of thing, I experienced real pain and regret, because the
person did not choose the way of development and creativity, but the way of
consumerism and personal bene-fit, which sooner or later would lead to the camp of
social parasites. Why man is so weak and why does he fall for the temptations offered
by the Dark side so easily? In fact, everything that the “eternal tempter” offers man is so
insignificant and primitive! And man is ready to betray himself, a creator, for the sake
of useless tinsel!

One way or another, very many are “bought” by one or another “shining doodad”,

forgetting very quickly the saying—all that glisters is not gold! And one should not do
something extraordinary—just not to hurry to sign a “contract with devil”, because the
“devil” gives nothing for free and, if he gives something, he takes back immeasurably
more. Is it so difficult to understand this and think a little—what do I have that the

“devil” needs so badly? It cannot be a soul otherwise the “devil” would try to bargain
with everyone, because everyone has a soul. This means that Dark Forces do not hunt
for souls, using their dirty methods, but for what the carriers of the souls are able to do.

Avidity and envy are the most favorable terrain for Dark Forces which play on these
feelings very skillfully and capture man’s soul. This is not merely idle talk on an abstract
subject, but a bitter reality. The shock from the prosperity and high level of living in
Germany resulted in my students having a burning desire to get all this at any cost—
albeit deception or treachery, etc. But the future shows that it did not help them to get
what they desired...

Indeed, tidy German houses with their beautiful small gardens, clean roads and
sidewalks, where you will not see any sweepings, impressed. The sidewalks were
washed every day with detergent so that if you were to lie down on the pavement in a
white shirt, it would remain as white and clean as it was before! For us, Russians, all this
was absolutely unheard of, because even our generation still experienced the
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consequences of the war . Despite the fact that not everyone lived in the conditions of
my childhood and that of my brother and sister, nevertheless, most people’s living

46 The II World War (1939-1945). In Russia it is called the Great Patriotic War. Russia battled Germany for four long and
bloody years—from June, 1941 to May, 1945, and won—but paid for this victory with over 30 million Russian lives.
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