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Nicolai Levashov. The Mirror of My Soul. Vol. 1. Born in the USSR

taking into account their approach, they will never learn to do it! I was sorry that their

actions discredited everything that I had begun to create by my own labour, namely,
people’s trust in these healing methods. They misled people by their actions, because
they declaimed about that which they were unable to do and did not know how to do.
Probably they thought, if they presented my work, it was enough for them to become
master-healers.

The fact is that in order to heal a person one needs to obtain knowledge, knowledge
and knowledge again! One needs to get special knowledge and experience which cannot
be obtained even if one thoroughly studies modern medicine. The point is that the
modern medicine is guided by a false system of understanding of the nature of diseases.
More precisely, modern medicine has no understanding of the nature of disease at all,
because it directs its attention to the symptoms of diseases, instead of the primary cause,
and does not understand the real nature of living matter and many other things...

The fact that a lot of people who saw how I work with patients or were next to me

at that moment were confident that they already understood everything and knew how it
worked always surprised me. Usually, their “know how” consisted in copying the
motions of my hands. And these “experts” were not even able to understand that it was

my brain which worked and my hands were only sensors, conductors. And when I asked
a person with whom I worked to inform me what and when he/she would feel or see this
or that, it meant only that one or another feeling or one or an-other image was nothing
but the tip of the iceberg of the real process and it was just a useful tool which I needed
to control the process more comfortably! I talked about it more than once, but no-body

paid attention and considered it enough to copy my motions and get the “necessary”
feelings from a person and the work was done….

But it appeared that the “work” failed to be done. When I saw this kind of naivety,
I always remembered an old film about a magician who somehow found himself in our
time. When he was asked to conjure a telephone, he created a marble call-box made of
the best sorts of marble and a telephone set made of gold. But it was impossible to make
a call using such a “phone”! The internal form does not correspond to the external one—
the eternal philosophical problem of the unity of the form and the content.

Likewise my “wise men” -students saw only the exterior part of the process and
decided that it was enough to do the same as I did! It is obvious that they had no problems
with “modesty”. My “we” they took very seriously.

My desire not to focus attention on myself, but on the importance of what was
happening, was interpreted in a quite unexpected way—it gave confidence to these

people that their presence during my work meant more than simple presence. However,
the future showed that they had made an important mistake in principle, thinking like
this. My unwillingness to create some sort of halo around myself resulted in the
witnesses of my actions “acquiring” haloes. I would not have thought that this kind of
ridiculousness was possible. The reality appeared to be much richer than my fantasy!
Regrettably, these people were not the last to do it.

Before my departure from Germany I decided to buy a car. My expenses and the
fact that not everyone paid for my work prevented me from buying a new car. Therefore,
I decided to buy a good second hand car. I chose a silver ten-year- old Mercedes-Benz

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