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Nicolai Levashov. The Mirror of My Soul. Vol. 1. Born in the USSR

It is true, but on the one hand, most of these millions of people were the most

talented, the cleverest in comparison with their contemporaries, because exactly the most
advanced people dare to go in the search of spiritual growth—those, who want to rise
above the ordinary existence of a reasonable animal. But even among these people few
were able to move ahead.

On the other hand, I saw the results of my own search. I did not consider myself a
great teacher or something of the kind in the past; neither have I done it in the present. I
simply searched for truth and understanding using all accessible methods, and wanted to
reach understanding of the essence of a phenomenon. I never looked either for grandeur
or glory. In my search I always went against the “prevailing current” and still do and the
results and conclusions I got became a thorn in the flesh of many persons, but
nevertheless, I go my own way. Often I was offered both money and honours so that I
would give up doing what I did. I always refused and thus, got problems, problems and
more problems.

But even the modest results I achieved gave me strength and faith in that I was

going in right direction. Those things and phenomena which I considered to be
elementary were treated as high achievements in the Eastern teachings. But I knew that
all this was only a “nursery school” and treated them accordingly. Many things which
these teachings considered high achievements took place in my childhood and were
ordinary for me. I did not refer to them as something unusual and thought that they were
a matter-of-course and happened to everyone.

Much later, when I became a student, I understood that a lot of the phenomena that
happened to me did not happen to other people, but even then I did not refer to these
phenomena as something supernatural. I simply understood that I differed a little from
other people. I could not even think about my “exceptionality”, but only hoped that with
the help of these features I would be able to come closer to the understanding of nature.

After I invented the transformation of the brain and spirit, my cognition of nature
grew more quickly. Hand over fist I received practical confirmations that, when a person
got certain qualitative transformations, he could do almost everything that the Eastern
teachings considered high achievements. The most interesting fact in all this was that
man could reach them not because of his high level of spiritual development (which
would be desirable too), but because of certain properties of his genetics. Moreover, all
these manifestations, which in the Eastern teachings are given as manifestation of high
spiritual development, can be related only to the genetic predisposition of a person, not
to his level of development.

Since quite a lot of people went through my transformations, I saw that even the
presence of new abilities, which I created for them, did not change their spiritual level,
but sometimes it resulted in quite the contrary. When a person got such a gift, he or she
even began to regress evolutionally, because he or she could not treat my gift correctly,
using it not for what was intended. I saw that people, who went through such an
evolutional transformation, could not truly comprehend what was going on, although I
tried to give them complete understanding of it.

I gave people the instrument and the rules for its use—what they should do and
what they should not. People listened to me and then did everything in their own way,
considering that they knew better. Instead of mastering their new abilities and working,

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