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Nicolai Levashov. The Mirror of My Soul. Vol. 1. Born in the USSR

beginning of my journey, not the end. Therefore, the fact that I had seventeen bodies of

the spirit instead of the six possible, according to Eastern teachings, neither pleased nor
distressed me. Well, maybe it distressed me a little, because I realized that I would have
to gain the understanding of everything on my own, in spite of the apparent plenitude of
“spiritual” teachings.

Certainly, there were some golden kernels of truth in these teachings, but one
should know how to distinguish them. To do this a person must know much more than
these teachings may contain. Otherwise, he will become “submerged” in them and will
loose the thread of truth and remain forever in this labyrinth of illusions. The saddest
thing in this situation is that this quagmire swallows a huge number of people, (when
they get a few “crumbs”, which they are able to “feel”), and they will never find that, for
the sake of which they set off on a spiritual search—enlightenment by knowledge.

Maybe, somewhere there are books which contain pure truth, but, regrettably, I did
not come across them at that time. I think that I was quite lucky, because I began my
independent search for truth and by the time I got one or another book of “great” spiritual
teachings, my own experience had already been rich enough and allowed me to see the
falsity of these teachings, smeared with the sweet honey of lying promises, which allured

a lot of people, who were looking for spiritual enlightenment.

It did not mean that I considered my achievements to be outstanding. Of course not,
it was simply important to me to “dig” for the truth, instead of roaming in labyrinths of
illusions. Someone may ask: where is the guarantee that the way I chose is not the next
illusion? Certainly, I could not assume with the total confidence that my perception was
not an illusion, especially at the beginning of my journey. However, the farther I went
along the way I chose, the more confirmations of its rightness I got. These confirmations
were real and material, which could be “touched” by hands and devices.

Besides, I thought then, why I should follow the way of someone else; and where
was the guarantee that their way would not lead to a dead-end? Moreover, a simple

analytical review of these spiritual teachings gave me enough reasons not to trust them.
These reasons were the following. Millions of people were followers of these spiritual
teachings over the several thousand years of their existence. They dedicated their lives
to these teachings and often gave their lives for them. But how many people from these
millions reached that which these teachings promised?

The facts show that a handful of people, out of thousands of millions, reached only
a part of what was promised. One may say that these millions of followers simply did
not “penetrate” far enough into these teachings, that they did not invest enough time and
labour in them, or that they are simply unworthy of these teachings. These are not my
words; I heard them from so-called spiritual “teachers”. And I repeat them here as being

only the mildest estimation of their followers given by these gurus. Partly they are right,
but only partly.

I also do not consider that everyone who picks up a brush or a pencil will be able
to create masterpieces like Leonardo Da Vinci, Raphael, Titian, Rembrandt, etc. There
are no two identical persons and regrettably, not everyone has a natural talent or talents,
but this is not their fault. In-deed, even a great talent requires an enormous amount of
work, in order to blossom.

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