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Nicolai Levashov. The Mirror of My Soul. Vol. 1. Born in the USSR

qualitative state which he had before my interference. I called this the principle of the
“goldfish” —persons unprepared morally and spiritually to new qualities and abilities
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finally get the “broken washboard”... The crux of matter is that I did not have the
possibility, time or desire to look after each person, who passed through my “procedure”.

Some may say that it is necessary to see what to give and to whom! However, it is
impossible to guess beforehand, how a person will behave in one or another situation,

especially, when he (or she) receives these absolutely new, unknown qualities and
abilities. One must not deprive the person of freedom of choice, of the possibility of
making the correct decision, thereby winning over himself and his temptations, even if
he does it at the last moment.

There were cases, when after getting new qualities and abilities, an “exemplary” in
every respect person, manifested a side of himself which was never observed in him
before. Sometimes a person leads a regular life only because it is profitable for him,

wearing the mask of a decent man. And, in absolutely new conditions—getting new
qualities and abilities—the necessity for this mask disappears, and his real personality
oozes up to the surface. Is it possible to see the mask or weak points in man before

temptations? It is possible in principle, but one cannot deprive even such peo-ple of the
chance to make the right decision at the last moment.

One way or another, when used wrongly, a new qualitative structure created by me
rolls up. It is my concept of justice. I neither assert nor insist that my concepts are the
best. But they are my concepts and I am responsible for what I give to others, and
therefore I will continue to act like this until something makes me use another approach.
I will later return to this subject more than once and now back to the events of that time...

* * *
Besides the events described before, in the spring-summer of 1988 some other
interesting events happened, which, although they could be referred to as being in the
purely terrestrial cate-gory, were not quite ordinary. In June one gentleman found me
through my friends, asking me to rescue his wife who was at death’s door in one of the
hospitals of Kharkov. She had a very bad form of meningitis, medical treatment gave no
result, and the doctor in charge of the case informed her husband that nothing could be
done and warned that she could die within the next few days. Exactly after this he found
me and appealed to me to save his wife’s life.

I promised him nothing until I could check the reaction of his wife to my influence.
He immediately organized it so that I could visit her in the hospital; the doctor in charge
of the case had no objection, because he was absolutely sure of the deplorable end and
disbelieved that anyone, particularly a “healer,” would be able to do anything in such a
heavy case. It was all the same to me whatever kind of opinion had the doctor about me.
After the first session this man’s wife felt a lot better, and after several sessions she
regained consciousness and ... began to recover quickly.

34 From the famous Alexander Pushkin’s tale The Tale of the Fisherman and the Fish. The tale tells about a fisherman who
managed to catch the Golden Fish which promised to fulfil any his wish in exchange for letting it go. The old man did not
want anything, and let the fish go. But his wife did. She sent him to ask the fish for a new their washboard, the next day for
a new house, then for a new palace… She wanted to become the ruler of her province, to become the Tsarina and finally to
become the Ruler of Sea to subjugate the golden fish completely to her boundless will. The fish cures her greed by putting
her back in the old cottage and giving back the broken washboard.
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