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Nicolai Levashov. The Mirror of My Soul. Vol. 1. Born in the USSR

necessary information. Because of this everything happened much more quickly and
effectively, with minimum losses and damage.

I managed to invent very effective tactics and strategy. However, for this purpose I
had to take the blows, not hide from them. This was not pleasant, but was always very
effective. I did not feel fear and not because I did not care, but because I understood that
I had only to allow fear into my soul… and I would be lost.

Only deliberate suppression of fear allowed me to operate quickly and effectively,
to make correct decisions, etc., despite pain and partial elimination of what was recently
a part of me. I can assure you that it gave me no satisfaction, but I knew that only this
approach would allow me to find the solution to the problem before I would be totally
eliminated. And, when I found the solution, I immediately began to implement it and

won.

Sometimes I restored and cardinally reconstructed myself during a battle;
sometimes I did this after it. But, one way or another I continued to go forward, each
time solving more complicated problems, and in order to do that, often I had to change
my perception of what was going on, be-cause without that change, using only old
patterns, it would be impossible to solve each new problem as it appeared in my way.

Sluggishness of thought is death to forward movement. I understood that right from
the start. Therefore, each time, I tried to find a new approach to problem solving.
Sometimes it happened at once; sometimes I needed time in order to accumulate all the
“pieces” of a mosaic needed for a new leap forward in the solution of new tasks.

My mind always was open to new things, I never said: “It cannot happen, because
it can never happen”. If I found something new, no matter how unbelievable it was, I
always began to ask my-self questions—what was that and would I be able to guess the
nature of this riddle—and almost always I could solve seemingly insoluble problems.
Sometimes a solution came at once, sometimes the problem was submerged in the depths
of my consciousness and “smouldered” there like an ever-burning ember until the
necessary “pieces” were found and then the solution flashed in my brain like a
supernova.

It always worked like this, even much earlier when I invented different devices. I
flung a task into my consciousness and it “simmered away” there until the solution was
“cooked”. When that happened, I saw the solution in my head as a real device, sat down
and drew a ready to use version with all necessary details at once, without any
intermediate variants. And this method of solving the vital tasks came in handy for my
work in Space. One way or another, everything I had done in my life before day “М”
was very useful for me in my star wars and not only there.

Also, it appeared that most black hierarchs with whom I had to battle were in fact
entrapped light hierarchs who more primitive black hierarchs had bent to their will. The
evolutional development ceiling of black hierarchies is very low (compared with light
ones), but they compensated for this by the development of their flexibility and

dynamism.

Before they decided to entrap a light hierarch, they usually sent their servants who
attacked this hierarch and in the majority of cases appeared to be destroyed by him. But
those who sent their servants to their death were absolutely indifferent to what would

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