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Nicolai Levashov. The Mirror of My Soul. Vol. 1. Born in the USSR

numerous answers about the secrets of nature. Almost always I managed to do it. A

sceptic was forced to accept the facts and... it changed nothing. A lot of people told me:
“When you prove it to me personally, then I will trust you!” And I proved it. But, the
result was zero, nothing changed, these people continued to preach false conceptions to
the others, even though they had the opportunity to be convinced that they were wrong...

It was difficult for me to understand, why people who called themselves scientists
were not interested in knowing the truth. I found it strange. At the beginning I spent a
lot of my force and time to prove to these people that I was right, and then I understood
that many of them did not need the truth. It was even dangerous for them, because in
acknowledging the truth they could lose their warm places, “scientific” reputation, etc.

Often, after I proved something to these people, they simply disappeared off my
horizon, denying even the fact of their acquaintance with me. I was annoyed by this kind
of dishonorableness, but no more than that. My aim was not to receive academic degrees,
but to be cognisant of the truth. I understood perfectly that I stood against almost
everyone in science, because my results and concepts about the nature of things
contradicted the predominant scientific concepts. But it did not perplex me—from my

childhood I had been stubborn and the phrase “it is like this, because it is like this” could
not make me change my beliefs because a doctor of science or an academic said it.

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I saw the ignorance of some “scientists” on my second year at the university. The
point is this—when I was a little boy, I used to invent different devices and mechanisms.
After I finished my first year I meditated on the problem of laser beam divergence.
During my summer vacation I succeeded in solving this problem. Instead of fighting
with the side effects which caused the beam divergence, I decided to strengthen them,
bring them to the maximum and control them. This approach allowed me to solve the
problem—the beam divergence disappeared. I drew some drafts of my laser unit and
some other devices and took them with me when returning to the university. I wanted to
clarify some details, as I was not a specialist in lasers.

One day I took heart and went to the dean's office. I got permission to talk with the
dean and asked him to invite someone from the chair of the quantum radio physics of
our faculty. He did it, probably to get rid of me as quickly as possible. He invited one of
the chair’s employees and I ex-pounded my idea and showed my drafts. He listened to
me for ten minutes, looked at my drafts and declared: “I do not know what is wrong with
all this, but it is wrong. All this is metaphysics.” “Something is wrong here” was the
only thing that the leading specialist on lasers could say?! If something is wrong, there
should be an explanation, what is wrong and why. It even seemed to me that he
understood nothing. I was disappointed, but not for long. I checked my calculations
again, collated it with physical concepts and found no errors.

I again took heart and during a recess between lessons went to professor Tretyakov.
In a few minutes I explained my idea to him, and he said: “Young man, congratulations,
you’ve discovered nonlinear optics, but unfortunately for you, it was recently discovered
by the Japanese.” The “metaphysics” appeared to be the discovery of nonlinear optics.
The fact that someone already discovered it before me was not of great importance to
me. It was important that my idea was correct and carried no principle errors. Besides,
nonlinear optics was not the basis of my idea but only an auxiliary element. Professor

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