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Nicolai Levashov. The Mirror of My Soul. Vol. 1. Born in the USSR

Tretyakov simply caught something familiar in my mumbling in the hubbub of the
recess. Later, when we were assigned to different chairs, I got to the chair of theoretical

radio physics which he headed then. I would like to say some good words about this
man. To my mind he was the real scientist.

Unfortunately, I didn’t have a lot of opportunities to talk to him. He was very busy
and guided the term papers and degree theses of other students. We conversed several
times including about my personal researches of human abilities. He had no scepticism;
he was open to new ideas. Once, when we conversed on issues of physics he said
something which I remember to this day: “Never stand on the “rails” of one or another
theory. Their creators were not fools and squeezed out of their idea everything they
could. If you do not want to pick up the “crumbs” of their ideas, always be outside of
them and never “within”. Only then you will be able to see their omissions and maybe
go further than they.” I memorized these words forever, they entirely resonated with my
own concepts and subconsciously I always followed them even when I did not realise
it...

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I had already studied two years at the university, getting “excellent” on almost all
my exams, but classical science failed to answer my questions, which appeared as early
as in my secondary school. I began my own search for truth in my third year. In my
fourth and fifth years I was convinced of the rightness of the way I had chosen. Over
three years I succeeded in finding answers to questions which had given me no rest from
my childhood. I did not have yet the whole “picture”, but I felt that I had chosen the right
way. I continued the search for the truth through the cognition of my own abilities.

Sometimes I had to participate in “blind” experiments. In one of such experiments
I was asked to define an object in the room. I began to scan with my hand and felt some
energy. I felt the limits of gradients, etc. Then I was told that I had defined quite exactly
the magnetic lines of a little magnet placed under the sofa.

So, unexpectedly for me, I knew that I could feel the magnetic field, and,
consequently, electromagnetic and electric fields. It was considered before that a human
being could not feel them, let alone to distinguish force lines. More pieces of the mosaic
were put into a unified picture, but I did not “mature” yet. Meanwhile the time came to
present my degree thesis; I stopped my researches to be fully engaged in it.

Mainly, my thesis was based on the formulas of mathematical physics. I felt no ring
of truth in the mathematical mind-games, but did everything, that was required for the

thesis. On my fifth year I was asked to write a thesis on economics. The teachers of the
economic faculty saw a spark in my arguments concerning economy. When I found out
that I had to pass several additional examinations on subjects that we did not study
according to the program of our faculty, I decided to reject the offer. I was simply too
lazy to spend my time preparing for additional examinations. For five years we had had
to pass about fifty examinations and approximately the same quantities of tests.
Sometimes I feel sorry that I rejected this offer and did not write the thesis on economics.

One way or another, I prepared my thesis, passed the examination on Scientific
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Communism , getting “excellent”. For my thesis I received “good”, although I do not

9 Scientific Communism was one of the three major ingredients of Marxism-Leninism as taught in the Soviet Union in all
institutions of higher education and pursued in the corresponding research institutions, and departments. The discipline
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