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Nicolai Levashov. The Mirror of My Soul. Vol. 1. Born in the USSR

words” which allowed him to open a “door” of a fairy-tale “cave” with magic abilities

and attain the enlightening of his consciousness by knowledge…
In general I was satisfied with the results of my performances. However, an
unexpected surprise was waiting for me in the end. When I came to the accounts
department to get money for my performances, it turned out that according to their
invoices the auditorium had been less than half filled and all charges for the rent of the
auditorium and the maintenance of my performances were deducted from my share. Also
no one was going to recompense me for my travel and hotel expenses, while not a single
rouble was kept back from the share of the organisers of my performances.

I decided to clarify the situation a little and told them that even if I was a physicist
-theorist, it did not mean that I knew nothing about finances. I said that I was asked to
get a degree at the economic faculty of the Kharkov University, but I rejected the offer
because I only needed to pass several examinations in disciplines which were not taught
at the theoretical radio physics faculty(now, I feel sorry for my foolishness and laziness).

Therefore, I informed them that for “some” reason they had “confused” the general
income and the net income. That they should deduct all charges, including mine, from
the general income and only then divide the net income, according to their previous
agreement: and that what they did was simply ignorant. They had divided the general
income, allegedly according to the agreement, and then deducted all charges from my
share which strictly speaking was a financial machination. Besides, the auditorium was
half full only the first day and for the rest of the tour it was over-crowded and people
even sat in the passage-ways bringing chairs with them. I had all this recorded on a
video-cassette. They did not like all these explanations. Valentin Rasskazov tried to
convince me that it was a simple misunderstanding which would never happen again,
that he personally and all the citizens of Archangelsk would be glad to see my
performances again, as well as to undergo training according to my system! I promised
to come back and left for Moscow.

The “phenomenon” I came across when trying to get the money I earned is called
“creative accounting” as I found out later, when different data was written in the official
records to that in the “other” book. For example, they showed half or even a quarter of
the quantity of sold tickets, while the auditorium had actually been completely full. It

was done usually to decrease tax-payment (so-called, double bookkeeping). The
difference between the “black” and “white” book was divided between the participants
in the financial fraud. Only quite another thing happened in my case, I paid everyone for
everything, and the organizers got everything from the “black” book and did not even
warn me about it.

But I did not feel sorry about it. Most important was the fact that I did not participate
in this fraud. And it was not money that was important for me, but people, who began to
wake up from an age-old sleep. Exactly this was the main payment for my work. When
I saw the blazing and living eyes of people, my soul rejoiced. Unfortunately, many
people quickly got fired up and as quickly “went” out, because a person, who managed
to awaken, had to act according to his conscience and honour and often this was very
inconvenient and involved a lot of problems.

Because this could lead to suffering, loss of work, the ruining of a career, etc. Many
people (however, not all) were not ready for this. It is better to remain asleep and have

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